.Sunday, January 06, 2008 ' 12:59 AM Y
woke up feeling all drowsy. and was comtemplating about whether to go staright down to anchorvale on my own or to meet cheryl. ahwells. in the midst of all this, my dear friend was down with serious fever and flu. i could barely recognise her voice larh -_-'''' anyhoos. after much debate and no choice, i took a brave step and went to anchorvale alone. but i went for the 2nd class, was late with all the discussions and all. so yeah. class wasnt as bad, but i had to leave after mr.tay's class to get home for cors stuff. my timetable has been fixed finally. and it's really ugly. BOO. and i hate all the modules. so yeah. i hate my major. and the hate is increasing. but its too late to step away now.ahwells.
went for ballet class and i totally suck. hurhurhur. i really think i need more classes. even ms pang says im missing =( im a bad kid. lols. but i went and she wasnt there, and when i cant go, she's there!!! AHHHHHH!!!. ahwells. i will go this coming thurs!!!! for sure! must! drag me pull me! roll there also must go. lol.
anyways. i dont know what to think anymore. im kinda too tired about it all. passion turned into obligation. i dont like this feeling. it's supposed to be free entry and exit. but now, it feels like there's barriers to exit. really. i know i said alot of stuff in anger, but... im not sure if im totally wrong or totally right. so now what? i make a decision and step out of it totally? and then attemp a comeback after getting my degree? and im sorry shijie and wans if you guys get scolded next week or something cos of this week =( really sorry. i dunno what i can do to make it up. AHHHH. im so frustrated. i dont like a feeling of obligation pushing me forward, i want interest and passion and happiness. issit hard? and with sch starting and all. i dunno what to do. seriously. somehow, i wanna hear opinions on my opinions. want tell me ? =)))
ahwells. all this shall not bother me i guess. im still as indecisive as ever. kill me!!! but some things really cant be decided just like that. it's not that simple. hurhurhur. and it's always easier said than done. lols.
oh btw. lychee ice blend from coffee bean is nice! really! it's not weird! it tastes just like....... lychee!!! hahaha. obviously. but im serious. lols.
and bimbo ong, you found a himbo to match you. really.
