.Wednesday, January 03, 2007 ' 3:38 AM Y
just read some stuff bout how life is unfair.
how certain people die so young,
by contracting cancer..
how it's unreasonable that
they had to leave so early.
i know it's nehnehly unfair..
but at least when the person left..
there were good impacts on the remaining family.
but yeah..
they could have been better while she was alive..
so many possible 'could-have beens'..but think about it..
she was here for a purpose.
and it was to teach her family bout stuff.
stuff that no one outside intruder can understand.
abd the only reason she left..
was because she accomplished her purpose.
by forcing someone to stay..
selfish.really is.
it's cliche..
but everything's destined.
that's really what i believe in.
sorrie for getting all emo-y..
i read some post.
and i tout abit..
den i tout a lil more..
and more..
and den i got emo.
hehheh.
i was also thinking..
bout people whom we label as
close friends.
best friends.
besties.
it's so ironic..
cos i realised..
how pathetic i was..
cos.. i dun have what they call
besties.
really.
never.
i suppose mine might come soon..?
but what are they for?
it's so funny..
really..
really..
to let someone..
come into ur mind..
invade ur life..
make u so ever vulnerable..
cos they see u clearer than
you yourself ever could..
but then..
only to..
retreat.
cos ure afraid.
of dependency..
or being guessed spot on.
of havin no where to hide.
of the person leaving in the end..
of losing contact..
have u all ever tout what would happen..
if they disappeared.
so.
isnt it smarter.
NOT to have one?
save urself the heartaches?
but i guess we do need to talk to people..
but why cant we do it
randomly?
like that..
different ppl..
know different sides of u..
u could escape..
lesser dependency..
wun it be perfect this way??
ah wells.
enough of emo crap.
hehheh.
let's get back to our victorian society,
put on our masks..
and become jekyll again =)
