.Thursday, October 05, 2006 ' 12:45 AM Y
i dun like opening up to my parents. i dun tink they'd ever understand me. but that's cause i dun open up. but still. dun they have 'parental instincts'?
i dun tink i can ever open up to ppl face to face. it's wrong. that's why so many ppl fall into depression i think. cause they have no outlet. therefore they start assuming.. hallucinating.. den.. they really break down.
i dun want to get somethin in return just cos i have invested a lot of time, effort and money in it. it's not about getting anything back. and if i wanna argue.. i did get something back.. passion. fun. friends. it's not zero returns. i will consider when it's time.. now's just not the time to think about it. so stop asking. u wun understand.. but maybe it's my fault.. watever.
there's too much in my brains. i cant think. so i shall put myself to sleep. ppl turn to eating, shopping, friends, alcohol, work.. i turn to sleep. cos i wun think about all these things. it makes ppl unhappy.
i tink singing with good friends help. for a while. hahas. or maybe it's the company.. but whatever..
anyone wanna talk? i tink i might need it soon..
help.
