.Saturday, October 28, 2006 ' 12:16 AM Y
i am still trying to find peace within myself. i cannot stand failure. so yeah. it'll take me like 500 thousand years to get out of it. i am pissed cos i at least expected a pass. i haven failed in like 600 thousand years. and this is the first time that i'll fail in university. so smart right. whoever said it was quite impossible to fail your uni tests. really. i cant find inner peace. tried to eat ice cream to not get so angry and upset at my own incompetence. now i understand. u cannot console someone who takes failures and sucess so seriously. like me. sagitaurus. we're like that.
the reason why im also angry is because when i fail, i'll miss the cap that is required of me. so. i cant do my business minor anymore. it's so wonderful right. the one thing that i wanted to take. nvm. i shall do some useless modules or take up a language instead. like for what. damn shit. really.
i need to know where i went wrong. i need to study a lot more harder. really. A LOT MORE. this shitty results are really shitty. it's like.. shitified. im trying very hard to stop the vulgarities from popping out of my head and trying so hard not to curse the lecturer for giving me this kind of grades. really. TRYING.
and to think i had another blow this morning from my eng lang test. tat was a killer. u know ppl always say they are prepared to fail. u can nv really prepare urself for failure. UPSET still. so yeah. i really need to do something to vent this extra energy.
what shud i do?
i know we're gonna dance tml. but den it's only half the day. i need to do something else.
im getting more upset than angry by the minute. shutup.
